Break up or No? what would YOU do? advicee plz!!?

so I haven’t really told anyone this because I don’t like to get people involved but I thought what the heck, I know its long but I really need advice so please read

so my dilemma is that before I met my current boyfriend, I used to be a big party girl, although I have never hooked up with anyone outside of a relationship but I used to hang out with my 5 best gals and we used to have a blast. We used to travel together, go everywhere together, we would always dress to impress, and it was the good life. but deep inside I always wanted to long term relationship commitment because although I had boyfriend it would only last about 4 months and I really wanted to settle down so finally I met a guy and we hit it off immediately and at first it was awesome cause I would still hang out with my girls but have my boyfriend there so it was good but as time passed he changed too. he stop going out, all we would do is stay home and watch football and at first it was okay because I would still see my friends from time to time but then he started to bash on my friends saying they are easy and that they go out too much and If I go out like I used to this relationship wouldn’t work. So little by little I stopped hanging out with my friends, and although I still tried to keep in touch by aim or the phone, that too was disappearing. so although I always felt bad about this, not until recently which I had to beg my guy to go with me to one of my friend’s birthday parties, I got to see all my old friends and the life I used to have, and I felt as if imp missing out on life. Although we were all hanging out I didn’t feel as I belonged anymore and it made me very aware that this just wasn’t fair. I know he loves me, I know he cares but in the back on my mind I know it’s not fair for me to have to abandon my life to be with him, I feel as if our relationship is only good if we go by what he says. He hasn’t stop hanging out with his friends, and I'm sure when he’s friends come back from FSU he is going to want to party with them. And it gets me very upset. and it sucks because as much as I want to let it go I’m scared to be losing him too since he’s been there for me, has helped me out, has been an amazing boyfriend overall except for when his jealous, and I’m scared to never find that again, last night I broke up with him because he insulted me calling me a slut, a liar, because I told him I was going to go out with my parents and he didn’t believe me. So I did it and sitting in the opera I rushed to the bathroom to call him. I really don’t know what to do. I’m scared of feeling lonely and missing this and it being too late to turn back time, I know he treats me extremely bad sometimes but then some other times he’s incredible, I know his entire family they are always talking about wedding wedding grandchildren all of this, yet as much as I care about him, I’m very frustrated with myself for losing myself in the process of making him happy. And I can’t see myself being happy and living to his expectations. Am I wrong for thinking this? Should I appreciate him more? sometimes he makes me the happiest person but then sometimes I regret everything…I want to move to NY, travel, experience so much and he really wants to settle down and I’m torn because I want both. gkjdkfjdfkd please help, I can’t stop thinking about this and I need to know what the outside party thinks.

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Break up or No? what would YOU do? advicee plz!!?

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