Child molestation still haunts me... Will I ever entirely overcome this?

(Please try to be understanding... even online this is hard for me to do. I just really need someone to talk to about this right now, and I don't want to tell my friends... I don't want them to judge me based on this.)

I was molested by my older teenage neighbor (age 18 or 19) when I was between the ages of 4 and 5. He was the only teenager in the neighbohood, so my parents entrusted him with alot of things; such as keeping an eye on me when I would play outside, or babysitting me when they wanted to go out on a date. Nothing abnormal. At first he would just watch me constantly... then he got more serious. He would make me sit in his lap as he whispered "what he wanted to do" in my ear. I would cry and ask him to stop, and for a while, he would end it there. Eventually it started getting more serious, and he would always try to get me alone. He would trap me in my bedroom when my parents were out (he was babysitting) or follow me into the playhouse that me and my sisters...

Child molestation still haunts me... Will I ever entirely overcome this?phantom of the opera

I also was abused as a child,but not by a person that my parents trusted to babysit us kids. My abuser was my very own father,and he told me the same kind of things,and some of his threats he carried out.my abuse started at the age of four,and stopped around the age of nine,but that was only because he got caught in the act of abusing my sister.I am now almost 41 years old and I still have nightmares about what he did to us.No it doesn't ever totally go away,but some of the memories do fade a little.You just have to remember just one thing,you were the victim,and you did nothing wrong.if you really need some to talk to I am available.It does help to find some one that you can talk to that won't condemn you for what some one else did to you.

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Child molestation still haunts me... Will I ever entirely overcome this?

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